If we were young again, and you had been more reckless and I, less a coward. Had you held your gaze a moment longer. Had I allowed my mind to wander... If your virtues had shone more brightly, and had I been more aware of my own If we were less childish and more adult If we were less adult and more grown up If we were ready to put away childish ideals... If we were as we are now... If we were Then still we would be
With the softest whispers, and loudest cries, Through soaking silk, and satin and wet lace, Through galactic patterned finger prints And peonies woven about my face, Through losing my grip on reality, And gaining my grip on tartan cotton, Through beautiful shared treasured memories, And stolen moments that I'd forgotten Through the arch of my very bones themselves And the release of my soul within sighs Through the softest touch of lips on my cheek And my desire to get lost in your eyes. Through your quotation of the colour blue And in my truth, my body calls for you
Sometimes I look at myself, and I am proud.
I am proud of the threadlines on my body that prove I’ve been winning for a while.
I am proud of my hands, that are nimble and quick, and graceful. But strong enough to get by.
I am proud of my eyes which show people who I am. Which give away my differences, and sometimes make people think I’m beautiful.
I am proud that I have lived twice the life of someone my real age, and four times the life of someone my physical age.
I am proud to be able to ask for help
I am proud of the mind that fights for me, and the positivity I keep in darkness. Of the way I have learned, more than my years,
I begin to once again stand in the fear of resentment, reinstating my phobia of rejection. Suddenly a cricket hops up on my shoulder and whilst I feel no guilt... still I feel.
I watch things like an experiment. Like my mind savours beauty and like sleep wants me not.
Like everything is beautiful and nothing is at all.
I find I fall asleep in your strong hold but sleep restlessly, the split second between sleeping and waiting becoming hours or days, and the waking state no longer being so far from its predecessor.
as we travel I feel like I recognise home, but I am, as always concerning this topic, mistaken.
I whisper my goodbyes and pass i
Who are you and when are you. by piano-flames, literature
Literature
Who are you and when are you.
Who are you and when are you.
Looking at me with eyes I feel I may well trust. With words I could one day believe about myself, and holding me with arms I could one day lean on.
A person I feel I could potentially and platonicly love.
who are you that I've grown up with and feel I could grow old with.
That I share thoughts and dreams and voice?
Who are you that I know better than anyone else does as I become you myself knowing I know you but can never really "know" you, thus in turn never really knowing myself.
Surely an illusion. for Gold Silver never rises so perfectly as we did out of the ashes. and we are silver, not gold, I know you'd
moving forward, standing still by piano-flames, literature
Literature
moving forward, standing still
Hand me your city lights.
Smash the glasses.
Break the bottle.
You don't need to see me to dance like we used to.
To hold me like you did the first time;
the time the bed song made sense
Take me back to out innocence.
I work to hold on to people and perceptions and I worry that my rose tinted glasses and your different views may clash one day and wage war against us both.
You never really said anything. by piano-flames, literature
Literature
You never really said anything.
You stand their screaming your glorified bullshit. Holding me in arms too many times broken.
A thousand words and too many stories but you never really said anything.
I wish you’d say something. Instead of speaking in nothings and nobodies.
I can feel myself crumble in to nothing lying in your arms keeping me kept in. like a cage.
I become air and nothing more in your arms. A ghost.
The ghost of me
The ghost of you
Only now can I look back and say that you’ve made me what I am. But what I am is broken and torn and ripped and pieced back together by a few loving hands.
One little knock and I’m a child again. 7 years old, l
Tonight I am yours
I can’t speak for tomorrow, next week, next year. I cannot speak at all right now, only communicating in strange moans and the occasional scream. The only word I seem to remember is your name. Every emotion carried out on a gasping ragged breath.
The intricate and confusing language of love.
In the moment I only know you, and me, and how to feel.
I close my eyes to everything else but this, everything but us.
The chills run up my spine as your soft lips press against mine slowly, your fingertips brush my collar bone, and your hands feel like they’re moulding me in to something new, something perfect. Your care